I feel worse, I don't feel any better. FML. Why do bad things happen to good people? &Don't say because the good person went to the bad thing.

I deserve better.

I hate it when this happens. I feel so used, like I just got fucked over. He doesn't talk to me, he only does when he wants something. I'm done. Really, all his words were probably just lies. I deserve better. Why do I always pull myself back to him. I want things that I shouldn't want. I go for the bad, &never the good. I let him do this to me , &now I feel so screwed over, it's not even funny. He's treating me like a fucking toy. whatever. whatever happens, happens. fuck my life as of right now. I wish things were better.. he can do whatever the fuck he wants.. I'm done. I know I said this so many times, but it's not going down without a serious talk. I feel so bad :(

It's funny how Brian ignores me when I tell him that Kamyle better not read my comments after he told me he loves me, etc. mwhahahaa. funny xD and they both don't like eachother. hm, la la la. It's really early, &I figured when I sleep, I'm dead asleep. no lie. Katarina came over and rang the doorbell, but my asshole brother didn't even tell me until last minute and had to leave for summer school. UGH. sooooo fuckin pissed. &now I'm awake and it's almost 8 in the morning.. Uhhh, I don't know what I'm doing today ! I MISS HIM ! [;