another post;

Well I have been posting a lot today just 'cause I'm bored; I can't stop thinking about things. Wondering, and Hoping, just waiting for May to come by.. waiting for the summer.. I want to know if it's true. =/ I hope I can talk to Will tomorrow(: That would be all I need. hah. mhmm, well I'm going to go change and go to bed; screw all the homework I have. I want some sleep! ..even tho I've been sleeping all day yesterday. I can't wait to see Will! <3333; okay goodnight.. it just seems so long away..

May?

Sometime in May is OK? hmm, we are thinking about it. I wonder if it will happen. I hope it will. (: let's just wait and see. I'm pretty sure it will?

(:

ohh boyy (: I got to talk to Will on the phone and he isn't in any trouble because he was defending himself. and, someone has his phone so I have to get it for him on Monday. He seemed to be really happy that he won the fight. hah. bleh. I was crying when I reminisced on worrying. LOL. lameee. good thing he is okay. no bruises or anything. basically he told me the same story other people told me.. BUT, 5 days of suspension! :O So, I have to see him next week, and he tells me not to worry and that me and him are going out to eat at sushi station once he comes back to school(: yay. bahaha. i miss my camera :( random.. what will I be doing this week!? idk. going to school late? you bet. more sleep, and nothing to expect at school, but friends(: and I should find new people to walk with temporarily! stressing and breaking out is no fun. I hope it gets to be warmer weather soon. the cold and the no sun thing is getting to me. I'll call Will around 12.. maybe. soooo busy. I really want good grades. mhmm, things are going good. and soon <3 okayyy byeeee (:

DAY 1


I have to be independent now since I probably can't see Will for a long time. That's not a problem.. I can be miss. independent. I AM independent. It's just I miss Will too much.. I want to see him. It saddens me how I thought I was going to see him when I went to dress out, and everything was okay, but then I couldn't see him :( I want the hugs, the playing with hands, the sweet talk. I want everything. Just to see his face for a tiny second would be okay. But I can't.. I feel weird. I feel like I really really like him, and that's obvious. But I can't say that I am in love, because I'm scared. that's the truth. I don't think I can ever say it again.. What if I am feeling that way, but I'm so scared to open up.. it doesnt matter |:
hopefully he is thinking about me, too.. I lasted months without talking to him in middle school, I can probably do it for a little while. ahh, I should stop ranting on and on about how much I miss him! when I see him again I will be SO happy, but then again so annoyed if people start bringing up the fight. It's over with so don't bring it up.. it hurts me more to hear about it because what if he got really hurt. grrr, I don't like fights. mmm, I'm hungry and I have a lot of homework to do. homework will take my mind off of this. NOT. it's just DAY 1, and I'm going to survive, and when I see him it be happy again(: