DAY 1


I have to be independent now since I probably can't see Will for a long time. That's not a problem.. I can be miss. independent. I AM independent. It's just I miss Will too much.. I want to see him. It saddens me how I thought I was going to see him when I went to dress out, and everything was okay, but then I couldn't see him :( I want the hugs, the playing with hands, the sweet talk. I want everything. Just to see his face for a tiny second would be okay. But I can't.. I feel weird. I feel like I really really like him, and that's obvious. But I can't say that I am in love, because I'm scared. that's the truth. I don't think I can ever say it again.. What if I am feeling that way, but I'm so scared to open up.. it doesnt matter |:
hopefully he is thinking about me, too.. I lasted months without talking to him in middle school, I can probably do it for a little while. ahh, I should stop ranting on and on about how much I miss him! when I see him again I will be SO happy, but then again so annoyed if people start bringing up the fight. It's over with so don't bring it up.. it hurts me more to hear about it because what if he got really hurt. grrr, I don't like fights. mmm, I'm hungry and I have a lot of homework to do. homework will take my mind off of this. NOT. it's just DAY 1, and I'm going to survive, and when I see him it be happy again(: