DAY 3


when I need you the most, you're never there.
ugh, I hate today..
well, mostly the afterschool part of today;
I didn't get to hang out and I WAS at tutoring and
what bugs me is that: you're not trying to protect me.. YOU CAN'T LEARN HOW TO TRUST ME!
ughh parents these days.. makes me so mad.


okay, enough about that.


DAY 3!


it was another maybe was what I got.
really, you never give me the words I want to hear anymore..
and how long is JUST NOT RIGHT NOW?
it doesn't mean not forever, right?
=/
I mean, when do i know 'not right now' is done with and you can be with me?



I realized that I never really knew what love was, but he did.
I knew that he loved me "sooooo much" and you never 2nd guessed about it.
but I did. I always questioned you because you knew that I never believed you when you told me it.
I don't and I never did love.. then what was it?
whatever it was it kept me there for awhile..



in 8th grade, I put: is this love or obsession?
now, I'm at that same exact point.
ugh, it's like going back in time and redo-ing everything.
you out of my life, and waiting for you to come back..
UNTIL THE END OF TIME <3